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It's true. I was skimming through my journal titles and a larger-than-excusable amount have ellipses. I'm attempting to rectify this gradually.

So. I am a) exhausted b) ill c) incredibly busy for no apparent reason and d) fretting about everything and anything.

Basically, nothing new. But I am heading off to college in a few, buying lots of dorm things, blah blah blah. Tired and busy and etc. I'm glad of an opportunity to be rid of certain people, will miss others dearly. This is the sad sob story of my life. (Note the deep seated sense of irony and self-loathing in that.) Okay, no, that's unfair. I'm just bored with the waiting game. It's been a lot of laundry and shopping and packing and everything I hate. I haven't written anything in weeks, I've been too tired and too uninspired. Looking and dust and cleaning things does that to a person. I feel like shit.

On the bright side, that means I've been doing a lot more art. Trying new things. I should be posting in droves once I get the motivation to. I know, promises promises. Typical, right?


TL;DR - Hello, this is an update stating more of the usual. This is the insomniac writer/artist telling you that she is stuck in a waiting game for the foreseeable week or two. Remember to vote, we don't want Mittens running this country.

That's All, Folks!

-Kath


Edit: WAIT no I'm a fucking liar I went to Governor's Ball and it was fucking amazing. I will see if there are any post-worthy pictures.

2nd Edit: Looking at Arthur Rackham's work makes me want to cry from envy and simultaneously work harder than I ever have in my life.

 
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Well here I am. Again. Being an utter twat and posting another journal entry, er... how many months late?

Regardless.

So what's new with me? Graduated (!), mostly. I've got to pick up my diploma from the office, barring extenuating circumstances like failing Calculus. Thank god I'm going to a college where there are no fucking core classes. I'll never have to take a stinking math class again if I don't want to. I'm complete shit at it.

I've become a bit of an addict since classes ended. I've gotten back into all my old sins; comics and television. Sherlock whipped me into a flurry a while back but I couldn't sit in it properly with all the shit I had going on, so now that school's ended I'm on a bit of a art and fic spree. The same can be said of Korra (KORRAAAA so glad Avatar is back, really, good on Nick for doing this honestly) and other various things. Finally read through to the reboot for The Authority, supremely displeased with the turn Young Justice has taken (what the fuck is this, Teen Titans??? NOT CANNON. Beast Boy??? Just what the fuck.), holding equal amounts of nail-biting hope and skepticism for the new Batman/Spiderman movies. Anne Hathaway and the fact that they're doing another bloody Spiderman take is... worrying. I think part of it is that Spidey and Batman were my childhood, you know? The keepers of the city (for those who don't know, New York is also known as Gotham). I always thought they were out there, looking out for me as a kid. I guess I just feel like I have a lot invested in the films. But the clips I've seen for Spidey are brilliant (the Queens accent is spot on, sounds just like my cousin, and he's a fuckin' Brit, too, look at that) and Nolan is prolific, so... we'll see. Basically the usual.

I'm excited to go through the usual whirlwind NYC summer - concerts and open mics, gigs and beaches and fireworks, shouting at tourists and showing around Italian kids and generally having a brilliant time of it. I'm really going to fucking miss it here, more than a lot of the people I know. The city has been a better friend than many friends these past few years. The idea of leaving makes me ill.

And I'm going to post more! I will. >__>; :icondeterminedplz:

That's all for now, folks!

-Kath


[...] my life is starting over again
The trees grow, the river flows
And its water will wash away my sins
For I do believe that everyone has one chance
To fuck up their lives
But like a cut down tree, I will rise again
And I'll be bigger and stronger than ever before

[...]

There's a hope in every new seed
And every flower that grows upon the earth
And though I love you, and you know that
Well I no longer know what that's worth
But I'll come back to you in a year or so
And I'll rebuild, be ready to become
Oh the person, you believed in
Oh the person, that you used to love

 
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Hello Again...

6 min read
 



*exhales slowly*

I am finally done with all of my US college apps. I can't even express how good it feels to be done with all that work and the stress of midterms and everything else...

There are so many projects I'm working on right now. But it's alright; I'm so ready to do something I want to do. I have a sculpture for a friend's birthday and my Sketchbook Project to drop off Friday and an art trade that I owe from months ago because I am a terrible human being... D: I've also got the comic project, and I'll be uploading specs for that as the year goes on. I'm mostly excited for that and the continuation of Monochromacy. I have so many art projects for that novel that I can't wait to finish and upload here. Alex and Ryss and the mythos of the Abrahamic religions has taken over my brain...

I know I'm going to offend a few uber-religious people with this new book but tbh I don't really care. If we can take the myths of every other religion and play fast and loose with them, why not? What do you think Milton is? Also, reading the Bible has been such a transformative experience for me. I knew on a subconscious level from my Catholic childhood that people pick and choose from the Bible, but actually seeing it is almost frightening. Quoting the Old Testament and taking it for fact is perhaps the most abhorrent error of judgement I have ever seen in my life. Now don't get me wrong; I have great respect for religion. It's been proven to work miracles much the way placebos do, and it has an incredible ability to inspire greatness and strength in those who need it most. But if you've read the New Testament and the Old Testament front to back, it's nearly impossible to reconcile the two in my opinion. The former essentially says "You know what? Just forget all that nutcase stuff we said before." Which is great. But the nutcase stuff is just frightening. What angers me most is when people use the Bible to justify hate. It goes against everything in the New Testament.

I think this says it best: jonathanlikespotatoes.tumblr.c…

I have learned so much about religion and writing and journalism from this novel, which surprises me immensely. I love it, though. It's been brilliant. And I'm so excited to start working on more art and delve into the comic scene.


Also: PLEASE WATCH:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=u62OtM…

My god this video. I can't even express how wonderful it is.

Can't we just respect one another? We are all made of the same remnants of stars, the same cosmic dust struggling to prove its worth in an endless ocean of space and dead matter. Why raise a hand to one another when we are all fighting for the same penultimate goal?

-Kath

 
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Well Then...

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So there I was making all these promises about doing more art and updating my journal, and well... *coughs* It's been about a year since I updated my journal. You all know I'm doing this for the free journal skins anyway xD. Well, not really. But that was what reminded me.

I've been neglecting dA in the interest of college applications/life outside of the web. It's been tough and interesting. I've started working a semi-legit job instead of just babysitting, which is good. I've also gotten a lot more work done since I've begun to neglect the internet. Well, would you look at that.

We're working on a comic right now. I can't say much for how we're going to finish it before July, when we're supposed to. I did sign up for the sketchbook project, and I completed the fiction project (albeit late). I've also decided to take Advanced Drawing this year, so I kind of kept my promise to do more art. I do owe a bunch of people art requests and I have one very very overdue Art Trade. D: I promise I will get those done soon. As soon as my portfolio deadlines for all these scholarships and contests are over. *coughs* I'm also working on my novels a lot more, which is good. I should be working on them now actually, but I needed a break and I miss dA. This site helped me on my way to becoming a better artist, and it was part of what gave me the courage to show people my poems (irl). I feel like I should give back more. Hopefully I will second semester. Senioritis, I'm looking forward to embracing you fully. Just so you know. xP

I'm ridiculously excited for Halloween/have been doodling everywhere. I'll post up a collage of them all when I get the time.


I really really wish I had a TARDIS.

Anyway, against my better judgement, I am still taking requests and trades and stuff. Just don't expect any prompt responses. >.>; I am also against my better judgement probably doing NaNoWriMo again. Wish me luck... ^.^;

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Woah....

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Sooooo...

It's been roughly half a year since I updated my journal. Epic fail? Yes. Intentional negelect? Not really.

So what's been going on with me... Oer... work? College shit: lots of that. I failed Nanowrimo due to work overload this year. I'm applying to Scholastic again...? Not sure what to say, xD. Guess I've been the usual overworked insomniac. Don't think much has changed besides that. I've been working on more art, which is a start. I've been trying to catch that side up to the writer-side of me. When I was little I didn't know which one I was into more, and I think I want to be more rounded. I've been reading less due to my work overload. Other than that, things are going okay.

****I'm still offering Free Sketches. I figure it's a good way as any to get me to do art. If you want one, comment here (or message me or something) and I'll get to it sometime. xD You're technically supposed to repost this again, to carry on the goodwill and all, but it's not like I'd ever know. Or maybe I would. *shrugs* So yeah, if any 15 deviants care enough to ask for one, go ahead. I'm pretty sure I'm the only person dumb enough to sign myself up for this type of thing though. xD****

Takers:
1) (complete, shadowdraconian.deviantart.com…)
2) (complete, fav.me/d35tw6v)
3) (complete, shadowdraconian.deviantart.com…)
4) For phoxtaled, to be completed.


Off to work on my Term Paper... Due tm and it's nearly midnight. T.T Wish me luck.


-Kath


Two weeks late like a surplus reprieve
I found a hair the length of yours on my sleeve
I wound it round and round my finger so tight
It turned to purple and a pulse formed inside

And I knew the beat since it matched your own beat
I still remember it from our chest to chest and feet to feet
The easy silence then was a sweet relief to this hush
Of ovens, aeroplanes and distant car horns

A fire a fire, you can only take what you can carry
A pulse your pulse, it's the only thing I can remember
I break you don't, I was always set to self destruct though
The fire the fire, it cracks and barks like primal music

I said I knew the beat 'cause it matched your own beat...
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